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Art is my Sword and Shield

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 29, 2013, 4:18 AM





Hi Ryceballs! Today I just wanna share with you guys stories about how art has affected my life in a positive way, how it protected me as well as how it made me become a more confident man as you see today, this applied very heavily especially during my school years.



This is a photo of me when I was at school. I wasn't the best looking fella and wasn't very smart either, all I did was play Pokemon and daydream, actually I was pretty much setting myself up for great humiliation and constant bullying with what I do lol. But one thing kept my head above water, I used to draw... a LOT. I used to draw in my little pink diary as well as even drawing in my homework. I just really loved.. to draw. And you know what? I gained a lot of respect for that. I wasn't one of those popular kids at school but I actually got along with ALL the stereotype groups, I got along with the popular guys, the nerds, the hot girls, the Hongkies, the Korean breakdancers, the wannabe gangsters, I even got along with the kids who usually hates everyone. It wasn't like I was friends with all of them groups but all of them liked me and respected me, it really was like I was in an episode of 'Everybody loves Ry' ok? And I am lucky and grateful for that, I think the thing was people just tend to respect those with a talent? Mine happen to be art. And to be honest I mostly hung around guys who weren't popular and a bit geeky and just played videogames all day, I feel that I am most comfortable around these 'non-cool' friends because we have a common interest and they are incredibly nice people, they don't put on a mask to impress girls because... well because they don't talk to girls to start off with... And sometimes yes they do get bullied and teased by the more popular guys, it is sad to see. But no one really tried to bully me or anything eventhough I hung around the nerdy kids.

Actually at one point I even got a 'gangsters protection' status from these so called 'Gangster Busters' because they like me so much. Now I don't understand why they were called Gangster Busters because these guys were also gangsters, they were gangsters who fights gangsters apparently? Wait does that mean that they fight themselves sometimes?? Or maybe its like a symbolic thing? Like they are gangsters so everyday they have to fight their own inner demon in order to keep themselves from becoming a real gangster or something? I don't know it was very confusing. But they told me if other gangs try to mess with me I can go to them for help. I of course just nodded and never talked to them much again, I don't wanna get involved in any gangster wannabe wars!

I was also quite popular with the ladies, once in a while I would get a girl asking if I can draw them like one of my french girls. LOL NO. well not that extreme, but yes I would draw them if they ask (With their clothes on of course) and yeah I would get along with them and then nothing would happen LOL. My friends would be like 'Woah dude you actually talked to a girl! What are these mystical creatures like? Did you gain super powers from this?'. But yeah, I do I think that this whole art thing kinda boosted my confidence a little bit, I was the bravest (well I would say most natural one) out of my group when it comes to talking to pretty girls, to be honest its not even that big of a deal when I think about it now, they are just human beings like everyone else afterall.. but you know kids, back then there was the whole girls germs/ boys germs and how if you talk to a girl you are a loser kinda thing. I mean we were like 17.. BUT STILL GIRLS GERMS WERE STILL AROUND OK? :'U

So yeah. Having a talent for art has protected me from bullying as well as helping me talk to girls... (omg such a loser). Oh also, another thing that I also used as my Sword and Shield was my sense of humour. I was friendly with everyone and cracked a joke once in a while. Remember this, no matter how fantastic your art is, if you are an asshole then your art won't do you any good. Nobody likes an asshole.

So thats that, I hope you Ryceballs out there ain't being bullied or anything in school now.. If you are then I am sorry to hear that. :(  I hope this journal has helped you in some way or another in understanding how to 'fit in'. Well not so much about how to become the most popular person or whatever.. but just how to gain respect from your peers. As well as using your talent to show others that you are not to be messed around with.

Ry-Spirit cares. :iconsparklesplz:

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Laevier Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AAhhh I love your journals! But yeah I can kinda relate. I was lucky enough to be friends with the nerds and the popular ones; though it wasn't like that at the start 

In Junior High, I started drawing anime here and there, and another girl who liked to draw was pretty popular at the time. There were rumors in which I copied her stuffs; when I heard that I was just 'Wow I don't even know that girl draws'. Then that girl's group did stuffs like yelling at me, badmouthing me when I was in the room etc. But yes no violence luckily. Actually I was so carefree I was the last one in the class to realize I got bullied LOL. I missed all those obvious clues but I am not that slow anymore okay TRUST ME. Sad thing is my 'so-called' friends left me too huhuh it came to a point when I only got 1 friend to talk to, but yeah got over that pretty quick.

Fast forward 2 years after that though, stuffs happen, and that girls' clique and I somehow became close friends; It is ironic as they individually said to me that although as a group, they were always together, they never really open up to each other. So they did to me and I didn't share their secrets to anyone. (Lol we were junior high kids but why does it sound so serious..)

Nowadays, they sometimes say things like, 'Why did we used to fight again? Hmnn I don't even remember'. Easy to say huh. But that time, I learned the power of truly listening. So powerful that it got me out of being isolated and I was #1 most trustable friend on yearbook haha. Good times, good times. 
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
aww thats a good story, and haha #1 trustable friend! good on u hehe. and yeah glad to hear drawing got u through things. to many positive years to come!
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swadowstep Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
... that was one nice photo...
you look great.....





really nice photo really good....
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RobinTheBard Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Awesome Title and an Awesome Backstory deserves Awesome Applause! :iconclappingplz:
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theamazingwrabbit Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you know what i was reading this and i was like "psh drawing never got me anywhere with people" but then i remember that drawing was actually the way i made a lot of friends at this one base i went to, they even shared a pizza with me and i just met them!!!
You're right Ry i should never doubt you :iconawesomefaceplz:
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Rutana Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Student Writer
Yeah... that whole thing of "boy germs, girl germs" killed my last real friendship as kid :/
I was a nerd all my life - but of course, the word "nerd" wasn't known back then among us kids (in germany).
So, because playing video games was basically my favorite hobby, I was lucky to find a few boys one year younger then me who shared this hobby. I was about 9/10 back then? When I got 11/12 somewhere around that, the friendship slowly died and I couldn't tell why. It felt  like somehow the boys didn't wanted to hang out with me anymore... my mom told me, that they might have come to the age, where they could feel embarrassed to hang out with girls, but I didn't understood it back then :o

Didn't found any friends afterwards (except some people on the internet) and the bullying in school just got started about that time as well... growing up in an area where everyone, even boys, didn't openly committed to playing games and gamers were laughed at from everyone didn't helped much. Staying myself instead of buying girl magz and go crazy about whatever pop-star was considered as sexy and awesome at that time didn't helped much as well... Guess if I would've lived in a bigger city, my chances might've been better XD

I think you're lucky, that you were respected so much for your art actually. I don't think that goes for everyone, unfortunately...
But I'm very glad for you :)
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CountChristoph Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013   Writer
According to a recenter photograph, your Looks have improved (and a very great Deal, though I imagine that is perhaps the most unflattering Picture you have of yourself, and you may well have taken it specifically for it NOT to be flattering; you could also well be lying about that being you at all, but I do not believe I've any Reason to suspect that), though I don't know you well enough to speak for your Intelligence; you do, however, seem able to Communicate, which means you are apparently functional on some Level or other, and a Capacity for Art implies some Part of your Brain or other must be functional (and being 'Book Dumb' is an... easier Price to pay than the Nervous Problems coupled with the Talents I seem to have gotten)...

:tighthug:

*pokes you to determine if there is enough Meat on you to make you worth eating*
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WorldFruitTree Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Ry you look like one sexy beast :3
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LovelyLittleSin Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I guess art has helped me in a way, but it has also held me back in some ways. I always draw when I'm not supposed (in class) and the end result doesn't always turn out right. And I've gotten a few nicknames that aren't the greatest because someone saw me draw a boob (oh, the horror!) and apparently since I draw anime style I automatically draw henti .-.
But it has also been a very good outlet for my feelings and whatnot. So ot balances out :meow:
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InkyTophat Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It was only when I started drawing publicly in school did the bullies started to worship me. 
And when they requested that I draw them something.

I gave them the finger.

Revenge never feels tastier. 
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Lonacc Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Awesomesauce! :la:
I'm glad you got your way.
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Silverpoint345 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hmm... I never really drew much in school, or at least anything of any real artistic value. Never got bullied much either; our 'Nerd Herd' was large enough to avoid trouble. Then again, most of the cool kids in school were friendly too. I guess that we just fit in well as a social group.

In other words, my opinion on this matter is pretty useless XD
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Art-by-Hakeem Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Lol I love this, and is very accurate. Thank you for sharing the truth about people like us ;)
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Magicbird Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
RY. YOU ARE NOT A LOSER. Even in your awkward high school days. c:
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Tegz0rz Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I used to get bullied all the time. But when those bullies saw me draw during class (when I really shouldn't have been;; ) they'd suddenly forget all about how much of a "target" I was, and act like they're my best friend, and often ask me to draw for them - to which I promptly thanked them for the compliment, and then told them to go eat a dick. They just expected me to forget about all the hell they'd given me, and suddenly do something for them?! That's so two-faced. I just stuck with my nerdy friends, who liked me for me, and not what I could potentially do for them. :/
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Lol i guess we r similar.. But i was nice to those who r mean as well though. My parents taught me to b forgivin and showing kindness to bad people and they would show u kindness in return.. Actully i think my parents were trainin me to become batman.
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Tegz0rz Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I've never been a very forgiving person. Minor things and mistakes, yes, making my life a living hell for no reason other than something as insignificant as my hairstyle, no. (I had a side fringe, and according to all those bogans, that makes me "emo") There were even times when during roll call some kid would put an empty office bin on my head, and everybody laughed, and the teacher did nothing. Needless to say, the teacher couldn't look me in the eye for the rest of my time there.
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Oh no. It seems like u were surrounded by assholes :'U man that sucks
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Tegz0rz Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This famous video shows how everyone at my school was. www.youtube.com/watch?v=u2Rqgh…

My school was Chifley Shalvey Campus, the one in the video is Chifley Dunheved Campus. My school was the sister school to that one, and 99.9% of the people at the school were all exactly like that. :/
I managed to not get Violent all through attending there though. There was one girl who punched me in the shoulder, after several months of verbal abuse, and I just laughed at her, obnoxiously loudly, since she hit about as hard as a kitten. Literally. Which was a relief, because before that, I was somewhat afraid of her. Haha.
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
oh wow! THAT famous vid! im so sorry to hear you have to go through this sort of school life :'U Nobody should have to go through this in school >.<"
Even the bullied kid who didn't give in to fighting at the end decides to flip and take justice in his own hand. I usuallly root for those who don't fight back.. but in this case im glad the bully got his body slammed on the group like a bitch.
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Tegz0rz Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm all good now, I survived. Haha. Now that I think back, nobody ever seemed to have the nerve to actually harm me, aside from that one girl, and that hit certainly didn't harm me.
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LaughingBanana Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
It helped me too... I guess. I dislike people and in all honesty... I dont WANT to get to know them (I sort of already do by hearing their conversations (impossible not to :stare: so loud...)
Drawing made everyone dislike me (I mean there would be one of two times where a kid went "cool" and next thing I know everyone was at my desk...) and only come to me out of bordum really...

SO YAY BEING  ALONE ROCKS (no sarcasam. Seriously.)
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Zokoboblin Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
That was a really good story! Thanks for sharing this about yourself. It's pretty inspiring
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mehbutterfly Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow! Inspiring! :iconyayzplz:
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Magicalcat Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Student General Artist
My "talent" made my childhood pretty painful :/"
They always picked on me for drawing anime stuff. They always assumed I would draw "hentai", 'cause thats the only anime-like stuff they knew.
I also drew Pokemon a lot and played it at school, which made me a "baby". Because Pokemon was so childish, of cause.
It happend so often that these kids would draw on my drawings, rip the pages out, destroy my sketchbooks or spit on them. Even the teaches ripped the drawings out of my homework or they told me to stop drawing.
But I still didn't stop, because drawing became my life. I needed to draw to express myself better. I can't go around and punch everyone I see. I just started to put all the anger into the drawings I made (and this honestly saved my life).

What makes me really mad is, that later, when I went to a comic workshop, my teacher always told me "Drawing in anime-style will get you no where in life". Which made me really sad. My biggest talent will get me no where in life? Gee! Thanks!

Anyway. Art got me into a lot of pain and fighting, but I also got a lot of new friends through it. It's a ying and yang.
It's the thing I enjoy the most and I will never stop to make art!
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Aww thats sad to hear.. But good theres good that came out of the bad. Like the yin and yang. And good u didnt stop drawin, u really hav a talent in it.
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Apollotheguy Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
Ry, this just inspired me to do two things.
Ask a girl I like for her phone number,
and get better at drawing. I've already been practicing this. I still need help on hands though.
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Good! Do guys still ask girls for their numbers lol??? I thought it would b askin for facebook or skype now days. Numbers is so 1980s! But then again wat do i no about asking girls out TvT'
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OctilleryInkjet Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
Aww such a nice story~

More storytimes! :meow:
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TheonknownKLAW Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Student Filmographer
Art is the only I have going for me really, although its kinda saddening being in a graphic design course and NOBODY seems passionate about their art, or the course for that matter. But then again I rarely interact with other artists to begin with, a habit i kinda want to change but my misanthropic introverted mindset will not allow... different paths walked I suppose.

But speaking about highschool, glad to see somebody had a great time at theirs, 3/4 of my highschool experience are a blur and the other 1/4 is too dark to talk about.
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Lunaoverthecow Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Student General Artist
When I was mad at some people I drew them as ugly wolves. And that's how I vented.
It seems teh french girl is a popular request these days. A friend of mine kept asking to draw him like on of my french girls so I put him in a french maid costume :I
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Haha luna. Can u draw me like one of ur french girls?
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Lunaoverthecow Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Student General Artist
Maybe I will :'I
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KawaiiPotato Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I was once bullied and hated by this random guy in my school. I reported him to the principal, gained a little bit of respect from my classmates and everything went ok. Well, that guy hated me even more, but he could't insult me nor do anything to me after that.
We were in art class before I got transfered from the evening turn onto his class in the morning turn. (Art class was on Saturdays.)
I also think that my drawing skills gained me some respect too since people would ask for stuff, or ask to look at my work. I, however, remained to be the kid nobody talked to, but I was happy all the time.
I need to practice more... I'm a bit rusty with drawing nowadays...
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dragonfriend7738 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
Beware of artists. They mix with all classes of society and are therefore most dangerous.— Queen Victoria
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
are u srs??!!? Lol queen victoria says that?!!?!! Thats awesome if she did
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dragonfriend7738 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
It's commonly attributed to her, as it is a paraphrase of a note found in a book of letters with her name on it.

A little more digging finds that it is actually from a letter written by King Leopold of Belgium to Queen Victoria- the full excerpt is as follows: 

"...dealings with artists, for instance, require great prudence; they are acquainted with all classes of society, and for that reason dangerous; they are hardly ever satisfied, and when you have too much to do with them, you are sure to have des ennuis." -- Leopold to Victoria, 10 October 1845.

('des ennuis' means trouble in French, in case you didn't know)
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Haha thats brilliant. I like this
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Enigma1315 Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, that's actually really cool! People respected you because you had a talent that they thought was cool, and that talent was art. Plus, you weren't arrogant about it, which was a plus. Good for you! :)
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yooci Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well that sounds nice. I'm not really friendly when it comes to new kids I don't know, so I just sit in the corner and draw. But sometimes people just come and ask me 'are you drawing?' and then we start to talk. I learnt that hanging out with the popular people is not fun, because they are all fake. I prefer having geeky friends, because we have common interests and they don't judge me and stuff. I think the most important thing to remember when it comes to making friends is don't try to hide who you are to impress people. Those who like your natural self should be your friends.
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Lonacc Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I gained 0% respect from the kids in new school, especially in my own class. The only thing they see in me is somewhat good drawing (by that I mean that not all of them know I draw well, and those who do still don't give a crap)
Next school year I will flip off all of them because they are pricks, and I have other things to waste my nerves on.

Don't get me wrong, there are a jillion reasons for them to be hated, and luckily I have way better company outside of school.
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JTravoltaIIVII Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
People on deviantart generally don't care if an artist is a prick as long as they're good, though.
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Are u referring to meeeee? :'D
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JTravoltaIIVII Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
I would never
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GreyRadian Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
Hey I was thinking about this the other night actually, about how people probably actually respected me because of my art and music, even though I 'may' have been a bit disrespectful towards the people who bullied my friends regretfully, but i was never really a direct victim of bullying in highschool. It really surprised me and made me wish i treated everyone better, so that's what I learned from high school :D

However i didnt get that kind of force field during primary school :(
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RedBionic Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist
Yea, my current situation is kinda similar. I am not friends with everyone, but I do get a lot of respect at school (dunno why thought...) and I am a "nerd". I can sleep (or draw, but mostly sleeping) during classes and pass exams with my eyes closed and I am socially anxious... which means I'll talk to you only if I know you or almost mumble...
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finiens Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You were, indeed, a lucky guy.^^
I was bullied for drawing in school. I was always made fun of, even by the teachers who occassionally would snatch away what Id drawn during breaks or after finishing the task theyd given us and show it of in front of the highly amused class.-__-'
When I made a joke in front of others, theyd run to the teachers and complain about how Id insulted them or something. It was horrible. After five years of this a parallel class was split up and weve got four new girls in ours. I got along with all of them instantly and weve been very good friends for years now. They liked my jokes and my drawings and encouraged me to upload them. Im so very, very thankful for their help and friendship. They pretty much restored my faith in humanity.:D
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Ry-Spirit Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
awww thats a good read. i guess every school is different. my maths teacher kinda gave me encouragement when i drew in my maths homework. he didnt say it directly but we have a mutual respect going on.. but yeah glad to hear u r doing good now ^^

and yes your teacher was mean to show your art in front of the class to amuse them >:U
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finiens Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Only my art teacher ever liked my works.XD
She was really nice and gave me a lot of helpful advice.

It was a difficult time back then, but I left it all behind and never encountered anything similar. Guess it was just bad luck to have been stuck in this particular class.
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Gyrin Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
Lol, I never cared about what people think of me and still don't. I'm in college and people don't talk to me cause they think i'm "weird" lol, okay. This isn't high school, if you don't want to get to know me and learn who I really am. I have zero ****s to give and you know where the door is. DUCES!
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