Hey Ryceballs. yesterday marked the day that I did absolutely nothing. I gota admit, the last 2 weeks has been one of my most crazy weeks of the year, there were just tooooo many things going on at the same time that has affected my emotional state. It was like an emotional roller coaster that just didn't end. Not just bad things don't get me wrong, but good things too. And being a guy who try to take as little rest as possible, I came to a point where I just got totally burnt out. I was just exhausted and tired and just felt extremely depressed. It has affected my judgement and logical thinking and it even shows in my polls to be honest, I don't know if people realise but sometimes the topic of the polls and quality of my artworks are affected by what's going on in my life.. but sometimes I throw in a few odd ball polls in there to mix it up so you guys don't think I am personally going through stress, so yeah 'poo flavoured icecream' isnt a thing from experience don't worry! I also don't like to complain or rant about issues in my life, the rants I write about in journals are usually past events that I have got over long ago already or just simply rant for the sake of having a laugh, the real issues I tend to keep to myself or tell close friends. The reason I am talking about this now is that I am feeling better and more collected and I can honestly say I am ready to take on the challenges again, how I did it was I took a day off and just did absolutely nothing.
With my dad's laughable job changing event, the amount of commissions I am doing (I kid you not I am now juggling 8 ongoing commissions at the same time), and some personal issues as well, it has made me rather sad and angry at times. But then there are great things happening that greatly lifts up the spirit straight after like me becoming a Deviantart CV, me being in contact with a youtube person who I respected and now we'll be doing somthing together and the fact that my youtube channel will be partnered with Frederator Studios, yes I have not mentioned this before until now but its happening. So its not all bad, there's certainly many good as well. Which is why I said it feels a bit like a rollercoaster that just goes up and down and up and down. There are even things that SHOULD affect my mood and I should be angry about but I'm just like 'Sorry you are not allowed on this ride as I already got too much to worry about'. So anyway what happened on that day of doing nothing? I literally just took a deep breath and turned off my computer, I get a lot of messages on skype and email and facebook and deviantart so it just felt so good to just walk away from that for a day, I drove out to the mall and walked around for an hour, I picked up a game called Etrian Odyssey IV, I have never heard of the game before in my life but the cute anime cover caught my attention. I went home afterwards and just took a nice long nap, I have had so many sleepless nights from just drawing lately, that nap has never felt so good. I then woke up in the afternoon and played a bit of my newly bought game, I turned the difficulty to easy, I do NOT play games on easy, but this time I felt I should, so I can just play casually without being too stressed out (And I gota say its a pretty damn good game). I slept some more, and just woke up feeling really refreshed and calmed and if I may even use the term 'logical', when I was in the emotional rollercoaster I have become slightly illogical in my thinking, I was being ungentleman at times and if you were one of those people that feel I was rude or offensive to you then I apologize right now, I was not myself.
Please don't worry about me I am feeling pretty good now. I have collected myself, I have found my soul and I am feeling more positive as well. I just wanna point out the importance of taking a break, I thought I could go the full mile of just non stop work and juggle many things at the same time without fail. But hey even God rested on the 7th day (Oh Ry comparing yourself to a God, I see how it is). So if you guys out there are burnt out or in great stress, try to find some time to rest. Turn off your computer, go out for a walk, get some fresh air! I didn't know how important it is till I tried it. OK ok ok ok ok ok Im back.
This is a picture of me chilling on the street yesterday.